Documentaire « Genderqueer en Gaspésie : l’histoire de Silver Catalano » | Troisième genre | Rad

Documentaire « Genderqueer en Gaspésie : l’histoire de Silver Catalano » | Troisième genre | Rad

In an ideal world,
would you wear makeup every day? No, I actually hate makeup. But when I look in the mirror after, I feel like I’m seeing the inside
on the outside. So it’s worth it. THIRD GENDER CHANDLER
Quebec Silver, you’re a singer-songwriter. You were born in Chandler
and you’re still living here. For now, yes. And you’re genderqueer. MATHIEU PAPILLON
Journalist What does it mean to you
to be genderqueer? SILVER CATALANO
Singer-songwriter For me, being genderqueer
has always been a way of going against society’s idea
that I belong in a specific box. Instead of choosing
the pink box for girls, or the blue box for boys, I celebrate myself
in all the shades in between. WAVE
Directed by: Didier Charette and Guillaume Beaudoin
Produced by: Didier Charette I don’t see femininity and masculinity
like other people do, because I don’t find that stuff important. Society has made identity important. I don’t think about those categories
when I wake up in the morning. I just think today’s a new day
and I’m being myself Where are we now? On the street I grew up on. I lived here 17 years. All the neighbours have seen me
parading by wearing all kinds of clothes and makeup. Back then your identity had no name;
today we call it genderqueer. How did your family react? I think my parents just wanted
to protect me. We used to have a lot of arguments;
they didn’t understand. They didn’t want me out late,
because they thought I’d be attacked. They were afraid of a lot of things. Like how my choices would affect
my life around here. I was always like, “Fuck that!” HEAVEN
Directed by: Jean Vital Joliat
Produced by: JEANVITALFILMS Hi… Silver. Mathieu and Silver. Tell them how many years
I’ve been wearing makeup. ADRIEN JUNIOR ROUSSY
Silver’s father I don’t remember,
but it’s been a long time. At home you used to wear
my furs and diamonds. BÉATRICE GIONEST
Silver’s mother And you wore red lipstick. He was around 7 years old. At school I’d get called
to the principal’s office. On the bus, the kids laughed at me
and pushed me. The kids on the other buses
laughed at me too. At school they mocked me
in the hallway and in class. Then the principal called me in. I’d go to his office and he’d say,
“People don’t like how you’re dressed.” I was like, “What do I care?” “It’s my style;
I’m not changing who I am.” This is me at sixteen. I’ve always transformed myself. This is my best friend, Jean-Sébastien.
We’ve known each other since… Grade 9 for me;
you were starting Grade 7. In high school, he was the wild kid
with the crazy hair and the bright yellow pants. He ran down the corridors
and got a lot of attention. The reactions were varied,
but they were constant. Some called me a faggot… He was “Mathieu the faggot.” My name wasn’t Mathieu,
it was “Mathieu the faggot.” When you heard the name
Mathieu Gionest… he was like an outcast,
the school weirdo. Are you really going to do that? I didn’t care.
I had moved here from Montreal, so I was more open
than most people in Chandler. I figured he was having fun. Being friends with you in high school
allowed me to feel… – You felt normal. Yeah, I felt like I had worth
as a person. When you saw that your son’s identity
was making people react so strongly, how did you feel? I felt really angry inside,
but I had to control it because… What made you angry? What I heard people say about my kid. The things they said stayed with me. When I went to bed at night,
I cried into my pillow… It made me angry to see people
pointing at him, or when they said,
“Is Mathieu really…?” I’d say, “My son is like that,
and I accept him.” “You don’t have to accept him,
but I do.” This is a small town,
and there was a lot of prejudice. There still is today,
and there always will be. The first day he came to my house,
I was sitting in my rocking chair. I didn’t accept the way he was dressed. It was shocking at first. Yes, but I regretted it. My son was the most precious
thing in the world to me. I don’t know…
everything changed afterwards. I would have given him everything I had. Let’s do our handshake. It’s our handshake. People will think what they like,
whether it’s negative or positive. If I have a negative opinion of myself, I’ll feel their negativity. If I have a positive image of myself,
it won’t affect me at all. There are some tricky moments. Like if I want to use
the women’s washroom. One day, the janitor in a mall
told me I couldn’t go there. because people didn’t feel safe. I didn’t understand his reasoning. He said, “Unless I have proof
that you’re a woman,” “that you have a vagina,
you can’t use the women’s washroom.” GASPÉ, Qc
February 2017 The city of Gaspé had its first
drag show a few weeks ago. How did you react to that?
You were a popular act. People really accepted me
in a way I’d never felt before. Here in the Gaspésie, sexual minorities
can have a rough time. I felt that the audience was open to seeing people
whose lives might be difficult expressing themselves artistically
in a way that is totally liberating. People were ready to celebrate
the show and sexual difference. I went and it was great. His aunt was laughing and shouting. She wanted to see more;
she thought he was great. I invited people to the show. They said Mathieu was fantastic. He does all his makeup too. It’s evolving. My little messy face.
– Messy face! It’s wonderful to see
how you’ve asserted yourself and come out on top. Today you’re standing here
with a smile. You’re amazing,
your makeup is beautiful. You’re radiant, because you know
your career is starting to take form. I’ve been coming here a few times
a week for the past six months. This is where I’ve created
most of my songs that’ll be coming out soon. I’d like people to look at
my material, and see me as part of the
artistic process. Not just as a freak
who writes songs. I want people to see this
as an experience I’m offering them. It has meaning for me
beyond getting a reaction. I create this material because… – It’s art, not provocation.
– Exactly. What I’m doing is not that revolutionary. I’m just being true to myself. I want to encourage people
to be open to themselves, and to me as well eventually. A VIDEO BY
Mathieu Papillon
Mathieu Waddell
Silver Catalano [etc.] Editorial Manager
Johanne Lapierre
Gigi Huynh
Charlie Debons-Ricard MUSIC
Words and performance: Silver Catalano
Produced by: Frame (Frédéric Messier)
Words and performance: Silver Catalano
Music: Boucane MUSIC
Words and performance: Silver Catalano and Frame (Frédéric Messier)
Produced by: Frame
Words and performance: Silver Catalano
Music: Boucane


  1. Excellent reportage , émouvant …. Depuis son écoute, je souhaite voir et écouter Silver lors des émissions tels que TLMEP …. Il faut faire connaître son talent et ce qu'il est , son message est essentiel.

  2. Moi aussi je suis non-binaire. Je suis bigenre ( je me sens fille et garçon ). Je suis né.e bigenre, j'ai seulement été assigné.e fille, et j'ai beau me sentir un peu fille, je me sens aussi à moitié garçon. Le problème, c'est que beaucoup ne me comprennent pas, et pense que je suis juste un.e ado en crise d'adolescence mal dans sa peau qui s'invente une identité de genre…

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